you're the one thing i got right
Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there
Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, oooh
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back
If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you...
Thursday, June 19, 2008
let me cry on your shoulder.studied and studied, and still studying. but dont seem to finish anyth.ultimate sianness
and am damn emoo, dont ask why cos i wont tell and i dunno how to tell and i dunno why too.
there's not even a need to emo, but i am. this is fucking irritating. perhaps, i just shouldnt have thought of anyth in e first place. knn.
25.5 hrs alr. i also need to 怎么办 怎么办 怎么办
怎么办e more i hope for, e more positive i am, e more e disappointment.urghhh
wahlauweiiiiiii
it's been 25 hrs 40 mins!!!!
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.I Remember You.
Jascha♥
10:34 PM
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
where's my rainbowi'm damn sad, emooooo
today should be a happy day.
i need to face e wall and reflect.
.I Remember You.
Jascha♥
10:20 PM
YESH YESH YESH. IT'S FINALLY WEDNESDAY!!!!!
HOHOHOHO
i'm not insane, perhaps jinger knows why.lol
GOODNIGHT!!
.I Remember You.
Jascha♥
12:53 AM
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
dilemma, but still missingtoday is so boring, bored bored bored.
no surprise, no anything, nothing nothing.
boring boring.
surprise comes tml!!!=)
oh today jinger keep smiling to herself, for i-dunno-what-reason. she dun wanna tell.
maybe still huachi-ing.LOL.
sebas came to find her, everyone thought they're tog. ROFL. and i've to repeatedly explain they aint thou' they're gfbf?complicating issue. anyway, i just cant stop laughing when they asked,like not only once? it was so damn funny and they almost not believe mee.
tml is good day=)
.I Remember You.
Jascha♥
9:25 PM
Monday, June 16, 2008
i'm thinkin' of uheyO, the day at e lib was terribly inefficient. dunno what did i actually managed to complete today. like nothing much hur. cos, was too tired, med causing drowsiness and stuff, and i was certainly too-of-a floating high in the skies that caused me to be so distracted to really focus on anything else other than...ya. =X
oh,jinger joined us today.=)
told u come lib sure efficient, see how much u've completed today.LOL. i can only say she made me feel so unbelievable of her, and definitely funny too.lol
was so malu today at e lib, such that while i was msging as i walked out of the study area to the escalator, i headed to e wrong exit. not a wrong exit, but one which isnt the exit, and it's just a glass between the two glass doors.knn, i nearly stretched my hand out to push open it. as i was saying, i was floating high, no one can understand me, oh maybe this jnr does.
anyway, i was just so damn glad, or am i dreaming, hallucinating? i dont know.
i see rainbow.=)
heyo i wanna sleep early tml.
i hope i got surprise tml again.
hohoho.
.I Remember You.
Jascha♥
9:28 PM
Sunday, June 15, 2008
tonight i feel close to you.HELLO!
i'm back! from drinking, from msia, from tuition, from sleep!
okay,we went to drink on fri. we= me,ade & her friend with e name of what 'guang', i cant rmb. wasnt really looking forward to it cos' am sick and i had consultation with mr kan for 3.5 hrs that morning, and my brain cells were seriously already depleting by then.
so we drank chivas, and i drank alot, i think i drank e most.zzz.kept adding and adding and not diluting it.so after about six seven cups, i was already getting dizzy, but am definitely not siao kay. perfectly conscious, just giddy. and i dont rmb what time we left. 2++ 3++am? i cant rmb. but i dont feel to have drank enough when we're going to leave.
however, once i stepped out of the pub, ade has to hold me. goddess.
then we walked to some mac nearby, and met the three other guys. by e time i reached mac, am in total giddiness, so i sat at the steps. thanks for ade holding me all e way man, nots i'll be like hit by any car there. btw, i didnt puke. infact i have never ever puked after drinking, dunno why.
And thanks lots for guowei's shoulder the whole night, my saviour indeed. luckily he's tall.i hope i didnt stink his shirt.LOL. then we sat by the river, chatted, crapped whatsoever till 630am i guess? and headed home. ade and the other 'guang' acc-ed back instead of heading straight back to tamp, in which going wlds first is totally a detour. anyway, they acc-ed me back cos they're scared that i'm still sober. lol. i knew i was still giddy by then.=x
I was so tired that morning, of cos' due to lack of sleep, but i couldnt get into sleep due to the dizziness and i dunnno-why.whatever it is, i had a great night but i haven drank enough.=x
And i must seriously thank guowei, if not for him i think i'll seriously puke around and die.LOL bonvoyage yo! i wanna drink moreeeeee=x
And i really fell sick after tt, was sick before that, even more sick after that. till no voice. but am better alr. noone knew what i was trying to say since ytd. zzz
had goodfood for father's day celebration.
luckily i didnt gain weight.thank god.
mugging again tml.e rest of the week is math. i wouldnt be able to complete it.
thanks man, i'm so sick. in two ways. knn.
ciao
.I Remember You.
Jascha♥
10:40 PM
Thursday, June 12, 2008
i dont fuckin' care.good evening!
just got home, from mugging of cos. today's the longest and latest day that i mugged till. however, my plan for phy failed totally. there's still so many chapters yet to be completed, and consultation is just less than 12 hours from now. goddess, i need more time. and more consultations.=x
oh, and i'm really still in the 'sick' mood. block nose cough blahblah.. bro was kinda, or sooo nice to call and asked bout my whereabouts and offered to fetch me home just now.so nice huh. partly, cos' my voice was as dead as mouse, and apart from that, he wanna show off his plasma tv in his car. wth? okayyy, i must have the mindset that my bro is the most caring brother of all.=x and sis and bro gonna get me my dream watch!!! yayness. finallyyyy
i'm kind of tired, kind of not, kind of i-dunno.
but am sure that, i'm definitely scared of falling realll sick after drinking tml. i hope i dont.
if i really do, i really wonder who can i call for rescue, definitely not my relatives. who'll be so noble to rescue a drunkard in the middle of the night.LOL
Anyway, i wanna take flu gap real sooon.
goodevening
&
goodnight:)
.I Remember You.
Jascha♥
11:26 PM
Sunday, June 08, 2008
how do my heart feelHAPPY BIRTHDAY VERA!!!&WELCOME BACK HOTTIE JINGER!!:)hehhehhehhh. no more fever, no more sorethroat, no more headache, plenty of sleepsss
am already missing my parents after they had only be gone, home, for 14 hours. it's so nice of them to come and stay over, despite the hours of jam at the checkpoint. the greatness bout parents..
we didn't go sentosa cos' of the rain, neither night safari nor the zoo, cos' i dunno why. partly, cos am sick and all of us were tired, especially dad, so we ended up going for early dinner at crystal jade. after which, headed for some shopping at cwp and amk hub. i was so tempted to buy everyth that i saw._____. sis bought me a pair of flats, coolness. dad got a pair and mom got three and a set of clothes. ALL EXPENSES ON SIS!! so she got a large hole in her pocket in just one day.=X
dad was damn funny, cos' we had to lie to him that his crocs shoe's ____ cheap, if not he would be reluctant to try them nor want to buy them. and that was the first time that he got some opinions like the colour and size and he wants it or not in a acting-shy-yet-cool-humble way. damn cute!! anyway, i think he knew it's ex la, my dad is ____ smart.
at the end of the day while heading home, that was very embarrassing but well, we had problem finding the way out of amk hub, not that we dont know where's the exit, thou' i have no sense of direction=x, but the gates were all locked, and there's only one exit,i think? And that ____ security guard actually led us to the lift which is the longer and slower way, cos he needs to take the lift.=/
reached home at 12am, and i was already drained and asleep by 1am.
when i woke up to pee at
2:18 am, my parents were still chatting in the room.
i feel so much older than them....they woke up at 7am, i woke up at 12pm.
something horrible, terrible happened to sis bf's dad. terrible terrible, but i cant say.
i hope everyth gonna be welllllllll
i so miss my mom and dad, mom actually asked dad whether they can move here. like wth? the house is how many times smaller than e one back in msia, which is so much nicer and prettier. bigger rooms, bigger tv sets, bigger tables, more sofas, more comfortable and bigger beds. she must be crazy, even coming up to the idea that converting msia business to bro. hellooooo, i think both fudak and onwards(M) will go bankrupt.____ NO. ROFL. dad says she's crazyyyy. i agreee=x
i was caught tighted in a knot when dad asked what i wanna study, my tiannn, can i even get into uni not...sensitive qn...goddesssssss
back to LOST :)
.I Remember You.
Jascha♥
10:05 PM
Friday, June 06, 2008
i froze.okay, i know this is kind of late, two days late but better than not right. :)
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY LIL BRO!!! 04062008
&
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SHARON!!!! 05062008
i cant believe i'm sick again!!!like within a month, i'm down with high fever, cold and sorethroat. kill me. all thanks to seoul garden ytd, all the bbq food and chocolate-ty cake. But at least, i'm so glad that i got to see the NETBALLERS!!! it's like real coooool to be tog again, thou' xin couldnt make it. oh GET WELL SOON!! of cos' we took lotsa pictures.:)
As i was saying, i'm sick but i STILL wanna go sentosa tml no matter what, for god's sake, unless i really cant walk or faint.=/.. i dont want to be ill anymoreee, especially when exams are coming. i need to mug kayyyy.
so, mommy is coming tml, or everyone including that stupid lil bro of mine. with that, it means that i have to clean up the house, topple it, flip it, flood it or whatsoever just to make it looks real nice and clean. of cos' my territory is clean, but i have to do x4 job of cleaning, due to the 'courtesy' of some. And i'm sick cann, i wanna vomit and faint, for realll. basically, i used two hours to clean up everyth, including wiping the shelves, tv set, tables, sweeping the floor, changing and washing ALL mattress wrap. looks simple isnt it, but am tired dead already, and i'm still left with the TOILET!! the MOST impt one and TEDIOUS one, one that i HATE to.. i just dont understand why is it that three live here, yet am e only one to clean. i just wanna grumble cos' i'm sick and have to do all these 'sai gang' and i've clean those that i didnt use and ppl just dont give a damn bout it. not that i cleaned unwillingly, but i just dont like it when ppl ask, ' have to clean mehs?' FUCK YOU!
that's e end of my pms-grumblessss
so i'm supposed to go clean the toliet noww.Ggrrrrrr
goodnight.
.I Remember You.
Jascha♥
11:42 PM
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
I'm sorry for blaming you.HEYO!!
did u realise i just changed my blog song???? currently am super addicted to this song, kind of a emmmmo one but hey, it touched me kay. my tears were on the verge of flooding in my eyes when i first heard this song. besides, i think who the hell can sing this song WELL, it's like superrrr tough can. lungs might just burst singing ittt. And i seriously think u did be heartless if u were touched by this song, not cos' i was touched by it la, it's seriously can make ur heart sinkssss.:)
anywaysss, i'm like damn looking forward to thurs, totally. cos' finally the netballers can MEEEEET; like the 6 of us again!!ohmann, i cant wait, of cos' e good foof too.:)
And And And, i finally can drink after so long, with the alcoholicsss =X i'll _____ kick ur ass if anyone ps meeee.
AndAndAnd, i wanna complain!!!!! why are ppl keep bullying me recently? like that loser friend over there who always call me a LOSER cos' she like literally killed me? Another killed me too cos' i live too far like in woodlands? And some jnr out there who made me feel like i'm her jnr instead, and every other relevant ppl out there.. i feel so dumb. LOL.
i know i'm slow, dumb, damn loser... alrighttssss
heyheyhey, i completed chem revision, now it's for phyyy. so the next two weeks i'll be damn stress, cos' i wanna ACE it!
i need EIGHT HOURS of sleep everyday.
ciao.
.I Remember You.
Jascha♥
11:26 PM
Sunday, June 01, 2008
Just ignore me.i slept from 9pm to 9am ytd.
i had tuition from 11am to 9pm today.
what's tml.
i'm so tired, dead.
some bpgh girl came to ask whether sa is good, and i actually asked her not to come cos' it's a totally slackers' school. i think noone should ask for my opinion cos' i wouldnt say anything good bout that school? lol. so dont even bother to listen what am talking about. anyways, she's really brave, like who will walk over in the lib to someone whom u dont know and identified them only thru their shirt with e school crest, and ask them these kinda question. at least i wouldnt.
And i'm so chickenchickenchicken today. tbp actually took my pen off after teaching me the qns, kept clicking it as he walks around the classroom and not knowing that e pen is NOT HIS. the most ridiculous thing was that, i actually see him putting the pen into his black pencil case, WITH my own eyes! I was like damn chickenchickenchicken to be too shy to get it back from him. my new pen..
Had pizza during tuition just now. joseph treated us, as a condition for letting him take pictures of us.=x had super great laugh during e break from all the stories that they said bout uni life. like how chicken the prc lecturers were and how the dragon girls were so ____ during presentations. after the whole thing, i think i cant get into uni.zzz
i found out one stupid thing, some words that i've been pondering over it for months yet they're just title of a song. like how ____ chicken am iii. whatever the case, it no longer matters anymoree..i think i'm down on pms, but am seriously not.
i fear of losing control again.
such a loser.
having terrible backache and stomach prob recently.like nowwww
damn loser.
ciao.
.I Remember You.
Jascha♥
10:19 PM