you're the one thing i got right
Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there
Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, oooh
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back
If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you...
Monday, March 31, 2008
If Onlyam damn scared of tml. whether or not it gonna be a disappointment, it all depends on tml.too much thoughts going on in my mind lately.going bonkersss totallyy
.I Remember You.
Jascha♥
9:54 PM
Saturday, March 29, 2008
ecstaticfirstly,
I'M SO BLOODY HELL SCARED NOWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SOMEONE PLEASE SAVE ME!!!!
okay, cos i'm alone at home now, for the whole of this weekend, and tonight of cos. i'm so terribly scared to be alone here!!! cos of that weird feeling and ghostly incident. goddess.. and i even scared the hell outta myself immediately as i stepped into the house. how can i be terrified no more.. some kind soul please come acc me now..i'm so gonna die of fear,ohfuck...
kick the whole ghost thing aside, today is just so LOVED!! okay, i simply love it. ofcos with the love, fbt. shopping and good food cant be missed. cafe cartel isnt really great food, but worth the try though. and i finally get to eat my claypottt rice!yummy. and shopping!!! got new tops, shorts, bag..greatness. it's been donkey years since i had a real good shopping spree, esp when i can just pay by nets. the money have to be replaced though. but there're still more that i need to get. like seven more??? I SO WAN THAT ADIDAS WATCH!!! i dream of it, i drool over it, i'm desperate over it...
okay, and today is a travelling day too, from woodlands to bishan to town then to the east, then back to town again.. and this simply cause not my leg to give way, but my back to be sobber, totally. and it didnt rain! so wanna say the f word, forgive meee. i think this back is just a burden, inccurable...
we saw fiona xie. totally prettylicious-pretty!!
saw yujing,hengyin,jinger,dorene,tania and friend too, i didnt know there's some super league thing. nballer no moreee
i'm still so scared..
.I Remember You.
Jascha♥
10:31 PM
tml's sat-day!! finally...
tcher din keep her promise to release chem result, saddened. i wanna know my chem result, for the first time, am so anxious about this particular subj which i once used to hate most. goddess. so eventually, still gotta wait till next week. Geez..
some stupid thing happened today. as u know, it rained kind of heavily in the evening. so when i rmbed that i forgot to close the windows in my room, the skies were already dully dark, and the wind was esp-ly strong. however, i was too engrossed in watching that HK serial which made me tear so much, that i cant help it but to stick my butt on the sofa and eyes on the screen, waiting for the esp to end before i jolly well go shut the windows. alright, this is stupid, i'm a lazy pig. so when i wanted to walk into the room,no, i went to the toliet first cos of the bursting bladder. and as i was on the toliet bowl, "POM!" there goes the sound, the door was shut. god knows, the door knob is kind of spoiled and was locked from the inside. all the keys werent working cos the correct one was locked INSIDE too!! goddess. the first thing i thought of was, all my stuff are inside, books wallet bag etc, how am i gonna go out tml. even e passport is in there, less to say to head back home though am not going back this week.. but all thanks to the landlord who has an extra set of keys, which he aint supposed to have. this lesson teaches me to unglue my ass or perhaps, i shant open the windows anymore...
seriously, i cant wait for tml! though have to wake up kind of early which is a total hate to disrupt my sleep. but am totally looking forward to it...
but i fear, scared of tml night. cant imagine how am i gonna sleep in this ____ house all alone, esp after that___ incident. i'm REAL scared, really..god bless meeeee
ii would flood the room with tears if it were you.daydreaming, totally...
.I Remember You.
Jascha♥
12:03 AM
Thursday, March 27, 2008
suicidaleh yo. today is
BAD DAY.
stomach upsets the whole day, feels total weird having germy in my stomach. it's been really long since i last had these gastric; stomach prob, partly cos i've been taking my meals, but it seems to be haunting back again. pleasee, nooo.
got back gp, as usual it's terrible. totally terrible. tell me how to rescue myself? and i gonna kill myself for the unccountable careless mistakes for math. suicidalll
another total thing that painted this bad day was, seeing someone who has got everyth yet wanting to borrow still, and refuse to lend others. not like you cant borrow, but it's totally awful when someone borrowed stuff from u, instead of lending out yours, you borrowed from another to lend it to that person. selfish freak. total shame.
alright, so i just received a call from this person call huize, telling me that she passed her driving test. received not a single call for months, what is she up to to call me today. (up to no good! =x) just kidding.. anw
CONGRATS!! for ur dream come true. dont know who once said gonna drive me yaaa, be my chauffeur.. okay, my point is, i'm gonna get mine settled done real soon! like booking for my first pract next weekend, for sure! asif i got the timeee
cut myself while opening an umbrella, nothing can be more dumb than thisss.
can i be a pig and sleep now? yawns.
i LOVE my blog song.:]
i want that adidas watch badly, i DO!! where's santaaaaa
a bitch is supposed to be bitch-y
.I Remember You.
Jascha♥
6:11 PM
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
ii say fuckokay, i'm so not satisfied with math grade.i'm gonna visit you, mathmaster!!ii said that.
.I Remember You.
Jascha♥
9:35 PM
Ohmann..i cant be more happy now!! though it's just a small little thing, i just feel happy!!
saying it out will only make you laugh your ass out, so forget it.:] whatever the case, yc is super high. perhaps i will smile at you even if you kick my asssssssssss now.
believe it or not.
wells, being honest, i pon school today. not like i anticipated it, but ehyo believe it or not, i couldnt wake up. no, i woke up to inform my friends and head back to sleep cos since there's nth impt in school today except getting back math paper. and i got an A! thanks xx! i was expecting a B actually (a low A which doesnt make a diff with B), cos had been skipping qns for the first 2 hrs, and only managed to get my braincells into drive for the last hour. so yo, i should be relieved, and visit muggerland soon! pigs fly if i did score for chem and econs. as usual.
i couldnt see myself being so happy even when i skipped school, instead i foresee myself in guilt initially. believe it or not, that busstop-partner-ade skipped too. think she's in germy world again. i'm totatly honest this time for not knowing that she skipped cos i did inform her not to wait for me. if not for me skipping school, i would be the one waiting like some idiot cos she never informs. thankgoddess. okay, i should write my letter now. shooo
sat is total love!! let me have sat now!
can anyone tell me how to go beach road??? certainly not telling me to take cab,duh.
pipopipopipopipopipopipopipopipopipopipooooo
.I Remember You.
Jascha♥
7:54 PM
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
being E-motionalnew blog skin! simply sick of the old one. it's just tooo....
plain and white. :]
tuesday blues for me.
today is emo day for me, all the way since morning.
i felt bad that i wasnt one of those standing there, as much as i want to.
yet i couldnt fight against faith, perhaps, myself. i'm no longer brave,confident nor do i bother to care more. such a bitch.
was kinda excited? to get back block test results, but so far only manage to get back physics. the last paper yet the first one to be returned. dont know whether i should be glad or depressed of. though i managed to hit my target which is a B simply cos i screwed it up that day, i thought i can do better. the paper was not difficult at all, without all those careless mistakes, an A is just right ahead,yet still, i didnt manage to perform.
though the case, the class; i mean from mr idiot's class which is half the class, didnt do well. majority failed. yes, i'm relieved that i passed even when i'm in that idiot's class, and managed to outstand the majority, but.... well, blame it on me for not studying 101% for the last paper, blame it on me for tiring out myself, blame it on me for being sick, and blame it on me, on my brain for not working on that day.
okay, my expectations are high, esp for this love subj.
enough of being E-motional.
the new time-table is LOVE! everyday ends early like dog. and everyday is nappy nap day. and everyday is oh-home-sweet-home day. so far, am still in the post-exam hibernation mode. out of 3 lectures, 1 was spent sleeping, another, daydreaming and the last, half-focusssssed.
totally wasting time in school. even up to the idea of skipping school. xiuxuan is making my nerves turn bad to skip school too. rofl. though i can simply fake a mc, i have no reason to skip school. not even the slim chance to get sick when the germy virus had invaded during BT (like wt*).
i've done with my shower, uniform, laundry, packing, cleaning, slacking.
it's time for homework, *stops hibernating*
and sleepsss at 11pm sharp!
moos-night!
.I Remember You.
Jascha♥
7:20 PM
Sunday, March 23, 2008
H.e.a.v.e.n.sGEez, my hair finally feels LONG again!HK serials; the best.shopping; the love!ooo1h; yawns...
.I Remember You.
Jascha♥
11:59 PM
Thursday, March 20, 2008
HURRAYZZYAWNBLOCK TESTS' FINALLY OVER!!hurray??as if A's over.today is the worst day of the whole exam. partly cos it's my fav subj, phy and i practically couldnt do the paper. not like cant do, just that brain aint working and in fact, it was an easy paper. okay, the point is, i left ten marks calculation blank, cos not knowing how to do the first part, the rest are undoable. rights, msg for mcq is like 10.5. terriblessssss.the school actually post MSA results to us. not like i dont know but din expect them to post it back to msia instead of to this sg address. ya, and so mom saw the results, which were like horrendous with my first 'U' throughout my jc life. worried as usual. and it really pissed me when mom kept asking what i gonna do with those results when im studying hard for block test. like, what the F? okay, i shouldnt blame nor grumble.all i want, hope, wish is Bs for all, hopefully phy too since A is confirm gone. afterall, all the papers are doable.=] now, i've got driving lessons to settle, but am really lazy for that.. all i wanna do is to sleep like dog to be pig and shop!step up was kinda expected,enjoyable, funny!.forbidden kingdom,vantage pointttttttti thought i've said smth bout the dirty thing that i encountered, well, am too lazy to say anymore. keeps the evilss awayyyyyzgoodbyezeee. =DD
.I Remember You.
Jascha♥
7:03 PM
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
scaresssCAN YOU BELIEVE IT?? I ENCOUNTERED GHOST!!!god bless man.. it's scary in here.
.I Remember You.
Jascha♥
10:12 PM
Friday, March 07, 2008
You gave me that Heartbeat,CONGRATS TO ALL WITH GREAT A's for CHINESE AND A'levels!!and to those who din do well, u'll see rainbow after u shed, well, the best is not to shed.=]well, din expect my resultsto be so. kinda shocked yet expected.ha. and ms chis'a comment really shocked me. '你如果没拿A就要打你了！' kind of random, but din expect her to say that.
i wonder whether SA did well for A this time...
gp was screwed. phy spa cant be more screwed.what gonna be even screwed next?
hols is right at the doorstep, but it isnt meant to relax. cos am dumb like dog. and i definitely cant catch up on everything during that short one week. i prayed...
okay, it's time to catch some sleep to fight WAR!! had been sleeping early into the morning, like 1am every single day of the week.it's been a hundred thousand million years since i last had so LITTLE sleep. having only five hours of sleep everyday will soon lead me to hell. let me not fail BT and not be sick. falling sick after BT would be great..so i can sleep moreeeeeee why isit that u have to make ur life such a nuisance.such a fuss out of nowhere. where on earth is there such a life of yours. a simple life is not what u cant have, but what u cant let go of the others for it. nothing owes you but yourself. u owe it to urself, just making urself so miserable and troubled cos u never listened, and never ever thought that u can be or are the fortunate one. why make life complicated when a simple one is just ahead. stretch your hand and catch hold of it. no more do i have the right to comment, not anymore, but this isnt what a friend does seeing the loved one trapped in the maze.u were never so enclosed, so unapproachable.
i had this dream that........
.I Remember You.
Jascha♥
10:36 PM