you're the one thing i got right
Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there
Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, oooh
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back
If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you...
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
this's yikcheong in the house!!today's a bad day,ytd was a bad day,e day before was also a bad day.you wanna know why?let me reveal the answer.=x it was because of....my back again.lol.to be simple,i cant sit well,cant bend and cant sleep well.the best position that i could have is to lie down and sleep.pig right?=x so,i'm no diff from a fei ren?when i brush my teeth,i cant bend to reach the sink,when i pick up th from e floor,sis and mummy gotta help me.that's so bad.shouldn't say more.lol.as such,i din go to school for two days.i did go ytd,just that i made a u-turn back.tour huh?=x sososo,i've slept alot this two days.let me count,12 hrs for today!!!pig hor?but this isn't bad either,e pain caused me to lose weight eh!!e only time i lose weight is when i get sick.now,backache is an alternative.but e pain is torturing.hees.
daddy was like kinda worried bout my back when he asked me what happened ytd.he said'can fei zhen me ban?.=) watched the 7pm show ytd.the superstar guy who starred as the basketballer injured himself too and gt paralysed.e most impt th is,e part he injured himself was the a same as mine.hehheh.i don't want to become a cripple=x
there's x-country tml!!i wanna run!missed pe today alr,dun wanna miss x-country no matter what.=) other than these,i found out someth unbelievable and i'm really hou zhi hou jue.seriously hou zhi hou jue.=x
.I Remember You.
Jascha♥
4:29 PM
Thursday, January 25, 2007
i love pe!!!pe is so fun man.with my cg.they're a grp of great ppl yeah?some are real funny.they're our kai xin guo.e kind whereby they will make us all laugh our lungs out!hees.pe real fun.cos of netball!!!heh.fun man.bertha,audrey,ginny are so blur.joanna so violent.elise's herman's gen pi cong.abel's always so funny bridge here bridge there=x.gerry the volleyball guy;shouldnt have challenged him today.phew~ brendan e staright guy,kin whye and luke e always up with funny actions,one of them cant play ball eh.and lotsa~~~
lotsa hw to do.i'm so lazy eh.think i'm the laziest in the class?oh my,,,
it's better to pretend isn't it.reality just aren't fun to play with.isn't what it is now great?i shall pray.........AMEN! lol=x
.I Remember You.
Jascha♥
7:50 PM
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
my second post for today.not that i've lots to say,but i'm just pissed.real pissed.if it would make ur eyes sore,DUN READ!
fuck that back of mine la!keep giving me problems.so what if one side is protruding out or bulges.so what if e other bends in.so what if the spine is weird.so what if the cartilage is weird.i dun give a damn.now that e injury relapses,i can do nth.not a fucking little th.not netball,not touchrub,not volleyball.jumping for lops hurts.even carrying a normal LIGHT school bag hurts.hey,there's only waterbottle, pencil case handbook,towel and file!.what can i do?fuckingly sad,nth!!i even quit netball cos of this.i gt scolded and nagged cos of this.i give up my favourite sport cos of this.this is so shit!! gt scolded and nagged at everyday.quit netball quit netball.see how it made you injured.see how it affect ur skin.see how it tires u out how it affects ur grades.fuck la.four years alr.i din care all e scoldings.i was so glad when i entered SA and netball.even better that it's going to be under bok again.but all e hopes vanished.i quit,feared not being to get myself going thru all the trainings,the endurance.these were nth to me before.i love them!!i dun wan to be sitting down alone again, seeing them train!dun wan to miss my chance to be in the team again!history shouldn't be repeating itself!!!i could do nth..fuckfuckfuck..hate it man!
i shall go into the kitchen,take the chopper,and chop my fucking back off me!.
.I Remember You.
Jascha♥
6:34 PM
i quitted netball!!! (on 15012007)
was it a right choice?i don't know.i just don't have the confidence and determination in me to give my utmost to netball.moreover,they don't have a permanent shooter now and i would become e shooter-to-be,yet i'm not sure whether i can hold this role well again.i felt the heavy burden in me when i played at e carnival e week before.was called on court for 7 games out of a total of nine.we even got into the second round.they're down on serious work!so,before they start partnering me for round 2 and interschool,quitting may be an ideal choice.perhaps,i just want to have a break.just hope that i wun regret upon my decision.frankly i really feel bad quitting.=x
heard that min quitted netball too.maybe quitting under chundi was much more an easier decision to come to.yet it was still unbelievable that she really bear to do so.she's tons times more devoted than me eh?how did she do it???=x
i almost fainted after telling bok on the phone that i squatted down immediately.my vision went blank for seconds.hai hao gina din see it.phew..
seriously,my back really aches.the pain's back again.gotta go see doc this weekend.since i have no cca for this two months or so,i will be darn free and bored.everyday spending my time in school for lessons then back home.what a boring life.=( anyone wanna go out must call me though i'm pretty lazy.=x
.I Remember You.
Jascha♥
1:36 PM
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!.
i know i'm late but i'm just lazy to blog.ermm no,it should be i'm too busy to blog.=xit's been week in SA alr.the college is quite alright.at least i can adapt to it.but e netball team there just dun make me feel right.something's weird in there.haha=x my class's out lerr.07S08! PCME. and i'm in the yellow house,LOYFATT.what a stupid name.venn,hose and romanis are much more better.=S loyfatt loyfatt,eat lerr jiu fat!!=x
din went to school today cos my back ached terribly this morning.really cant get up from bed.so went to polyclinic in the afternoon.all cos of e carnival on sun that cost me $20.60 for consultation fee and medicine.broke lerr.ZZz.oh ya.there's training today.if i were in school today,think i'ld be getting scoldings from bok now.cant he just dun scold me?scold me till i have e intention to quit netball alr.but there's nth more that interest me.round two is on 28 jan.another torturing day.Zzz.can we make it?
i've gt so many movies to watch eh!!spirit of the victim,pan's labyrinth,loft,deathnote and ghost rider!!woah so many!.just watched death water ytd or e day before.dun really rmb.=x soso show.kinda funny bahs,but it wasn't mean to be funny eh.got shocked a few times.-x gonna watch deathnote tml,also a so-so show bahs.e first one wasn't that nice anyway.
xiao jie,zhe liang ye xing~ lol!!
gotta eat med.tata!
.I Remember You.
Jascha♥
8:16 PM